not enough

Why am I not enough for you? I give and gave and loved and made and still I was not enough for you. I worked and played and listened and stayed and still that was not enough for you. I allowed you to take the lead because that is your place right? Yet, that too was not enough for you. I supported you on your journey to find yourself and when you got to the end of the rainbow you left me empty like that pot of fictious gold. I was not enough for you and at that point another slid into the comfy place that I had made for myself and reaps the rewards. Just to rub in my face that I am not enough for you. So I have come to realize that I gave you too much power and made it too much about you and began to lose who I was, so that eventually there was not enough of me and that is why I was not enough for you. So I don't blame you, I blame me for not allowing myself to be enough for me.

Amara