Somatic

The pain is ripping from my chest to my stomach. I burn in agony as if an inferno is eating me alive from the inside out. Why you might ask? Because I have been cut out. I asked in class today did I miss him or me more, it's hard to say. The physical distance is hard but the emotional is unbearable. I am trying to break through a wall that is unsurmountable. Like Ace of Base I see the signs and my eyes are opened with a heart that again finds itself broken. Maybe my path is that of loneliness and solitude. I don't know what to do anymore but feel my body hurt from the stored up feelings, that you are not sharing. I want to vomit, but I don't think it will make it any better. I hunger for your love and touch and yet it is not there. I can not even tell you to read this or keep you abreast of the rest of my life. Wife is the word that comes to my head, but that is not what you want again the signs I have read. You have time you have space. I am done I can't run this race. You are 10 steps in front and you keep gaining speed. You win. I quit. I can't even breathe. The tears cloud my view as I write this to you and I hope one day that you will read this too.