not enough

Why am I not enough for you? I give and gave and loved and made and still I was not enough for you. I worked and played and listened and stayed and still that was not enough for you. I allowed you to take the lead because that is your place right? Yet, that too was not enough for you. I supported you on your journey to find yourself and when you got to the end of the rainbow you left me empty like that pot of fictious gold. I was not enough for you and at that point another slid into the comfy place that I had made for myself and reaps the rewards. Just to rub in my face that I am not enough for you. So I have come to realize that I gave you too much power and made it too much about you and began to lose who I was, so that eventually there was not enough of me and that is why I was not enough for you. So I don't blame you, I blame me for not allowing myself to be enough for me.

Amara

Discovered

I found me! That hip bohemian chick, who lost her cousin Rick and life stopped...just like his heart that tore in two. I split with myself, with my man, with my life and I was twice a person and not whole. I journeyed from god to GOD and now I have the faith that it takes to succeed. I will plant seeds of pride and self-esteem in my students to be and make them find the bohemian or hip hop or intellectual within, man the options are endless. I have found me Miss New Who? Wait not that, for real, okay. I like her too. All that is the complicated woman that is me, I like her I found her, that bohemian hip chick with the twists and lips that speak a new path a new truth. Welcome back to the beginning, it only gets better.